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Thursday, May 12, 2011 ,

7:27 AM

It is so random why I suddenly thought of you but yeah. I did? I couldnt sleep at all. And he werent there for me. I somehow missed those times when we were still tgt. He doesn't seem to understand anything at all, and he's got lots of things to learn. Ah, can't blame him. What to do, lol. It's my choice anyway. (: What the hell is freaking wrong with that anime. Like seriously, and wtf is wrong w me -_- it is just an anime.. I dont understand why. I even cried. Omg ? It is so funny how this fked up anime spoiled my day and even made me stay wide awake in the middle of the night, when i'm supposed to be on bed, in my lalaland. It was so quiet, and I felt so lonely. Everyone was sleeping so soundly, so comfortably. Although that damn bitch woke up quite a few times, asking me to go to bed and ruin my thoughts. Still, I am relieve that someone actually cared for me. At least I know, I am not alone now.

I dont know what's really on my mind. It has been flooded with memories recently. The past which I had always yearn for, to go back. It kinda hurts everytime I am hinting you I need you so badly and you couldn't be there for me. All I get was nonchalance. Well, you could say that you did care, and I was the one who's not taking the initiative to tell you what really happened.. Forget it. I am so sick and tired of telling you every single thing. What to do and how to do it right. How many times weren't you there for me ? I was crying, I was crying.. You always told me you'd be there for me but I doubt so. Yeah, you always said you sense something's wrong. Yes, something is amiss but you can't even bother to find out what it was. All you did was, study>friends>eat>sleep, family perhaps. That was what you did isn't it ? There is no room for me. Have you ever considered my feelings? It kinda piss me off, when you know something is not right and you are not doing anything. Sometimes I wonder, if i am really important to you. Everytime we quarrel, or maybe because you were busy doing ur stuffs, I'd constantly check my phone, waiting for ur replies. And everytime I did that, i'd miss you more. It would always take an hour or so for you to reply but I was relieved you replied anyway. Happy yet sad. I dont know why I have these feelings but it seemed like you are enjoying urself alot. Maybe my presence doesnt affect you, probably a little, but not as much as you did I could say. It feels weird almost everytime aft we quarrelled and you started the conver, trying t break the tension. You'd always pretend that nothing happened when I replied you. It did not happen only once but quite a number of times. I dont get you. Do you really feel nothing ? Or are you purposely trying to avoid th conflicts we had. I don't know. How i wish you'd stay and flood my inbox everytime I asked you to go away. It seemed like you didn't catch me. It's alright.. I wanna give up. Im really exhausted.. My heart hurts.. For a moment I thought you would be there to catch me when I fall, but I guess i was wrong. You couldnt even be there for me, to cheer me up, or maybe be kind enough to just do the slightest thing a boyfriend would do like asking me to stop crying before you hang up the phone. You knew that I was crying. You knew it well urself. And everytime you did that, I would cry harder. Because You made me realise that, no one, will be there for me anymore.

Stand Up From Where I Fell
Profile. Ting ♥ Valerie, Kelly, Zhenling, Shout. Memories. September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 Music. Music Playlist at MixPod.com	Thursday, May 12, 2011 , 7:27 AM It is so random why I suddenly thought of you but yeah. I did? I couldnt sleep at all. And he werent there for me. I somehow missed those times when we were still tgt. He doesn't seem to understand anything at all, and he's got lots of things to learn. Ah, can't blame him. What to do, lol. It's my choice anyway. (: What the hell is freaking wrong with that anime. Like seriously, and wtf is wrong w me -_- it is just an anime.. I dont understand why. I even cried. Omg ? It is so funny how this fked up anime spoiled my day and even made me stay wide awake in the middle of the night, when i'm supposed to be on bed, in my lalaland. It was so quiet, and I felt so lonely. Everyone was sleeping so soundly, so comfortably. Although that damn bitch woke up quite a few times, asking me to go to bed and ruin my thoughts. Still, I am relieve that someone actually cared for me. At least I know, I am not alone now. I dont know what's really on my mind. It has been flooded with memories recently. The past which I had always yearn for, to go back. It kinda hurts everytime I am hinting you I need you so badly and you couldn't be there for me. All I get was nonchalance. Well, you could say that you did care, and I was the one who's not taking the initiative to tell you what really happened.. Forget it. I am so sick and tired of telling you every single thing. What to do and how to do it right. How many times weren't you there for me ? I was crying, I was crying.. You always told me you'd be there for me but I doubt so. Yeah, you always said you sense something's wrong. Yes, something is amiss but you can't even bother to find out what it was. All you did was, study>friends>eat>sleep, family perhaps. That was what you did isn't it ? There is no room for me. Have you ever considered my feelings? It kinda piss me off, when you know something is not right and you are not doing anything. Sometimes I wonder, if i am really important to you. Everytime we quarrel, or maybe because you were busy doing ur stuffs, I'd constantly check my phone, waiting for ur replies. And everytime I did that, i'd miss you more. It would always take an hour or so for you to reply but I was relieved you replied anyway. Happy yet sad. I dont know why I have these feelings but it seemed like you are enjoying urself alot. Maybe my presence doesnt affect you, probably a little, but not as much as you did I could say. It feels weird almost everytime aft we quarrelled and you started the conver, trying t break the tension. You'd always pretend that nothing happened when I replied you. It did not happen only once but quite a number of times. I dont get you. Do you really feel nothing ? Or are you purposely trying to avoid th conflicts we had. I don't know. How i wish you'd stay and flood my inbox everytime I asked you to go away. It seemed like you didn't catch me. It's alright.. I wanna give up. Im really exhausted.. My heart hurts.. For a moment I thought you would be there to catch me when I fall, but I guess i was wrong. You couldnt even be there for me, to cheer me up, or maybe be kind enough to just do the slightest thing a boyfriend would do like asking me to stop crying before you hang up the phone. You knew that I was crying. You knew it well urself. And everytime you did that, I would cry harder. Because You made me realise that, no one, will be there for me anymore. Wednesday, May 11, 2011 , 1:43 AM I just want everything to remain like this forever